From haters to anxiety
“it's not worth your energy. redirect your focus onto something more fruitful.”
Welp….🙃 I received my first hater online. I guess this is the milestone I hear from people. They say, “you get haters when you're doing something right.”
I never received a “hater” comment before. So I guess now, I'm doing something right 😂.
Choosing to show up as myself. In my fullest expression.
Naturally, that will cause some pushback. But I won't fold.
The comment wasn't anything too harsh. It simply read→“The belly😥😥😥😂😂😂”
As I was wearing a corset crop top with a bit of my belly showing.
I'm completely aware of my pudding pack. But, the comment still made me feel uncomfortable. And of course I reported it and got it deleted. I'm not gonna sit with their foolishness.
I'm pretty sure that person probably hates their own body. It’s sad how loud insecurities can be. You only talk crap on someone, when you feel crappy yourself.
And I know I was serving that look SoOoOooOOoo 😂😂 I guess I hurt their feelings.
I also found it pretty ironic. My post was about following your light. Shining bright. Allowing yourself to bloom. And this person greeted the post with their own darkness. Sad. Truly, indeed.
Let's shake that off shall we…
This past week has been pretty rough for me.
I've been feeling overwhelmed and underwhelmed at the same time.
I've been so anxious and stressed out. Feeling like my thoughts were moving a million miles per hour. I was on the verge of tears for a couple days straight.
Have you ever felt like that?…
I find myself still battling with the weight of taking on life by myself.
I think somewhere along the lines I got used to being alone.
Doing everything by myself. Taking care of everyone - except for myself. Not having too many spaces to simply breathe.
Life can get so heavy at times.
I forget that I get to choose what to pickup, lay down & what not to carry at all.
I collect everything like Pokemon GO cards. Then one day I look up at my buckling arms. Wondering where all this junk came from. 💭
I'm grateful for my boyfriend. He helped me through the rough week I had.
I'm also grateful for my uncle as well. He reached out to me and reminded me that…I'm not alone.
I never realized the beauty of having people in your life, who love and support you.
Admittedly this reality is still new to me. I'm not used to having loving people in my corner. But man, it's a blessing.
It's something I hope everyone gets to have one day.
Through all of this, I didn't want to forget my commitment to show up & write.
I don't have anything too profound or inspiring to say. I just wanted to show up as myself.
Kinda messy. A little confused.
Recovering from an anxiety spike.
Yet grateful. And still figuring it all out.
Cheers - to this indie film called Life. 🎥
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That's my time for today.
I hope that you find peace in the chaos.
Say no to BS. And leave negativity in the dust.
May your new week be something beautiful.
Until next time,
Take care 💖
